I’ve decided to try a 365 day spiritual practice in the Kundalini tradition to fight my familial demons.
Instead of moving away, and instead of jumping from frying pan into fire, I am going to try to transcend both through spiritual practice.
In other words, I am going to consciously let go and let God handle my family issues on a daily basis.
I am going to use the 12 step program of recovery suggested by the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous as well as a spiritual program outlined by kundalini yoga to figure out how to let go and let God take over.
Although I am not on schedule with the 40 day global practice, I am starting from where I am now. Today is day two for me. I will post the practice in case anyone wants to join me. It is really a beautiful practice which combines a pranayama which activates the “7th rib,” which according to kundalini tradition gives us a new spirit, or renews or childlike spirit. The exercise is followed by the recitation of the poota mata mantra which is a mother’s blessing for her child. It is a holy prayer for her child that the child would remember God always and never forgets, not even for a moment. The mantra is repeated 11 times.
I am chanting for my children, for my relationship with them and for blessings in their lives. I am also chanting for my relationship with my mother, and with my siblings.
I am chanting for children who have troubled lives and for orphans and kids in war zones and refugees, for families everywhere.
It seems like a better use of my energy than to simply run away.
I will keep you updated on my progress.